Finally…


Written on March 11, 2009 – 12:52 am | by eitherorneithernor

I havent been posting… I’m sorry. Today, I finally decided that i should, because I am beginning a movement that will change my life, and hopefully many other lives as well.

I was rather downbeat since the beginning of school semester, but I got shocked awake by a many negative occurrences in classes. I realized that while I havent really slacked off, I had effectively lost my verve for living that kind of “superman” life, probably because I got tired from coping with 5 courses this semester (with 2 classes that are 300 level).

But I thought to myself: There are too many things waiting for me to be accomplished. Theres that competition which I know can bing further glory to school, club and self. Theres that degree with honours and distinctions beckoning. Theres that lure of victory in 3As and 2 B+ this semester. I need to do this right!

SO here I am, refocusing my energies, and gunning for a brighter tomorrow. I was once frustrated, tired and afraid to fail. Now, I am focused, alive and ready for challenges. I fear no lecturer’s challenge, or exam. I know nothing being thrown to me is insurmountable. I just need to focus and drive myself.

This week has been a revelation to me. I realized that I can really kick into high gear by psyching myself up and really just tearing myself away from the world t get my stuff done. I am glad I did it and I will continue to do so…

I am a new man.. once again.

“And so it begins…” -Gandalf

Things Happen. Maybe for a reason.


Written on December 23, 2008 – 11:07 pm | by eitherorneithernor

It’s been a while since I blogged, so I apologise for my lack of updates. Here is what has been happening in my life..
Vietnam:
NO.. I didn’t go there to fight a war… rather, i have been ravelling from North to South Vietnam in a bid to absorb and understand its culture and people. It has been an enriching experience and i will talk more about it in later posts… pictures will be up in my Facebook.

Everything else is just fantastic. I didn’t expect my exam results to be this good:
A for Crit thinking and NTR
A- for COM theory and Psychology 101

I guess when you work hard, and have good support from your girlfriend and family, you will do reasonably well. Next Semester is another challenge.. with Five modules and infinite amount of challenges to come, I brace and relish this oncoming challenge. This is embracing the wave, at it’s highest.

To my girl:
I do want to be your love. Now and forever. I’ve never felt this way simply because no person has loved me so truly as you have. You are honest, and sweet. You are lovable and kind. You are supportive and understanding. You don’t have to be a supermodel, you don’t need to look glam. To me, you are the person that I know i want to be with. That’s all that matters to me.
I want to hold you and feel your hair between my hands. I want to hear your voice every day, that sweet laugh and the perfect kiss you always give me. I want your hands to hold my face, and mine to hold yours as well. I love holding hands with you, and i love your carress even more.

I.
Love.
You.

Always.

Dont.


Written on October 27, 2008 – 9:16 pm | by eitherorneithernor

Don’t be down. Don’t let people make you feel bad. Don’t. Just Don’t. Because it’s not what you are. I think we all need to take a step back and look at our own problems and situations and then from there, learn to be happy.

Cancel the Ideals that other people have, reject the demands. Just embrace, accept and believe. In yourself.

A change is coming. Breathe in the fresh air.

Balanced Out


Written on October 12, 2008 – 10:41 pm | by eitherorneithernor

The problem with being happy is often you forget that there is a balance in life. Life tends to take you down a notch when you feel good, just to remind you that it is watching you.

I had an incredible time today. Nobody would have any idea how I felt today. It’s was special just being there, sitting and talking and reading. I have not felt like that in years. It’s really special for me. 10 years after first feeling like that, I feel genuinely happy again.

Then after that, I was told about insecurity. I thought it was settled before we started this whole thing. Maybe the conversation got lost in the many other conversations. But here is the thing: There was another alternative to a poor struggling student (ME). But he was not chosen. So why now like that?

I was asked to think of a solution. Now I can’t sleep. I feel horrible because I know I cannot make up for this incapability right now.

“Surprised and Bewildered” - My current state.

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Written on October 11, 2008 – 4:40 pm | by eitherorneithernor

Here are the new shoes that I will be using for the New Balance REAL Run… This pair is so AWESOME!

Next Sunday (19th Oct) will be the run. I love running, and this trail will only make me love it more because the trail is so tough and the sand make me work doubly hard so I can push myself forward. I know, it’s weird that pain is a motivator for me, but to finish and beat your timing is always an awesome feeling.

You should try it one day!

“Pain is the greatest teacher, but no one wants to attend his lessons”- Ninja Master (you wouldnt believe it!)

P.S. Did I mention? I LOVE my FREAKING NEW SHOES!!!

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Keep it together!


Written on October 9, 2008 – 9:55 pm | by eitherorneithernor

Everybody has been tellig me how horrid and bad their lives have been. And I agree, it’s torrid and messy. Some are encountering massive setbacks, others in fear and some with issues that are unresolved from the past.

So what to do? Everybody seems to complain to me. Like I can solve it? I CAN! I do have a solution but it seems crazy. Many people just find it mad(?) My solution?

Let it Go!!

Yes. Ladies and Gentlemen. Everything is transient in nature because reality we perceive is not the real one! Therefore, let the thing that makes you so mad/sad/angry GO! 

Before you think I turned Buddhist… I need to clarify! It’s all in my understanding of Plato. He argued that what we perceive of the world are onl shadows that the reality of light has cast. Therefore, the Truth is not before our eyes!

Ladies and gentlemen, seek the truth. It will turn your life around. Whatever the truth is to you, never stop looking for more truth. Why? Remember:

Question everything. It’ll save you from insanity, frustration, anger, hate and fear.

“Question Everything”-Socrates

Yucks.


Written on September 30, 2008 – 1:04 pm | by eitherorneithernor

No peace this 2 weeks as the turmoil rolls all over the world.

The world’s most powerful country has just had a “no-confidence” moment simply by not backing it’s President when he FINALLY made one good decision. Europe, Asia have all been affected by the resulting panic. It involves the rest of the world as well, and America knows it. Petty issues bar the progress of the revival.

Melamine scare continues to rock China, and now, the rest of the world as well. I did foresee this coming. The country, with it’s rapid growth and expansion, has seen it’s product quality dip drastically. All the Olympics publicity in the world cannot save them from the truth, that China, in it’s full stretch, is flailing to maintain control of the critical control systems. This is the failing of not just a country, but a culture at large. A culture that embraces capitalism, yet stubbornly hangs on the the vestiges of Communistic Control. There will be no end to this unless proper measures are taken to curb greed.

Many people ask me why I never endorse my “chinese-hood” by supporting China in its bid for Olympic glory. My reply (in my head, because it is rather strong and offensive to some many) is that I never identified myself with China! I’m not CHINESE-CHINESE. I’m SINGAPOREAN. My roots? NOT CHINESE.
WHY!? People ask me again and again. WHY!?
Simple:
1) I have never subscribed to the Patriarchial view of Confusianism. The state is not my father, it will never be. My father is my father. And even then, I only accord SUFFICIENT respect, because even your father CAN and WILL be wrong sometimes.
2) I have never believed in being materialistic. All that “DO THINGS BIG” that the Chinese culture endorses(it is TRUE) is not in my upbringing. I aim to grow my spirit. The relentless pursuit for more is not just a capitalism thing, its also a culture thing.
3) I have never endorsed Communism. It is a good THEORY. But humans have a way of needing variance. Freedom, and the ability to NOT BE PUT DOWN for being different is neccessary to succeed.
4) Using force of will to subjugate other nations is not something that i believe in. The China that exists now is a land-hungry giant, making incursions into Tibet, and eventually to Taiwan. I can see China becoming aggressive in the next 20 years, especially after 2020, when it will pose sufficient threat to the rest of the world with its Nuclear arsenal, and its rapid navy.
5) Chinese Nationals that come here to study/work often do other things that are not related to study/work. They come, they take, they criticise and many leave after they get what they want. I always say “never bite the hand that feeds you”. It is not true that we “feed” them in one way or another?

It’s not that I HATE China. I just don’t believe in being proud of a culture that has been TWISTED. Changed to become something that it is not. The nobility, grace and intelligence that once characterised the great culture that was Chinese culture ha now been watered down. Until I see a change, a return to the good ways, I will not get caught up in the “olympic marketing” that China has used to sway the rest of the world into believeing that it is a great nation. There is nothing great about China right now. Nothing except it’s size, and appetite for greed.

Easy does it. No?


Written on September 17, 2008 – 8:58 pm | by eitherorneithernor

I was running around this week studying, doing recruitment for toastmasters and prepearing for a midterm. Then I realised that while I have been busy, I had not stopped for a while to just breathe and pour my thoughts out. So Here I am once again…

I was reading a blog recently… actually, i’ve been reading blogs a lot recently… and I realized that this person (and many other persons) cannot let it go. They hang on desperately to their fears, insecurities and frustrations. It twists them inside, makes them angrier and darker. Makes them unhappier. It’s a serial issue for these people. The order is as follows:

1) Meet a problem/envy people who get things, have things/eother jealousy inducing issue
2) Curse and bitch and moan over issue in (1)
3) Dwell on it WAY too long
4) Never improve yourself to get rid of issue in (1)
5) Stay Bitter
6) Repeat step (1) again. :(

I don’t really have another analogy, so bear with my Star Wars concept again:
Remember how Anakin Skywalker fell to the dark side? His denied love with Amidala, his frustration at being held back by Obi-Wan? The death of his Jedi Comrades? He let it simmer and boil within him and eventually let it take him over. Forget the Force Lightning, this guy is pissed as hell. That was what made him turn. Not the power of the Dark Side, but the anger within.

It’s all over for these people. The ones that are twisted and ugly. We can’t help them. We can’t love them, neither can we assist them anymore. The only thing we can do is to move and not get burnt by them. IF ONE DAY they change, well… good for them yes? If not, why the hell are we still with them?

Some people conceal their dark side very well, and therefore, still retain many friends. But sooner or later, it will show. Some don’t hide it, or don’t realize it, or whatever the excuse you give for them. Whatever it is, YOU will get burnt if you don’t get out of the way.  Some come to you, and beckon you to your ensure doom. Learn to say: “NO” If not, get someone to do it for you. This will change your life for the better. Trust me. I’m not kidding here.

This message was brought to you by the cells that work in the mind of Kenneth Lee. Heed it well.

“”Fallen to the dark side, he has”- Jedi Master Yoda

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New-fangled Galore


Written on September 6, 2008 – 9:17 am | by eitherorneithernor

This past month, it seems to me like some most people have some new fangled thing to fall in love with. Iphones, Xbox 360s, Friendster Blogs 2.0, even New web browsers are grabbing their (and my) attention. Let’s start with the Iphones.

The launch of the Iphone 3G in Singapore certainly made waves. Reservation started a few months before and OF COURSE my parents went for it without hesitation. What do i think about it?

Well.. in my time with the gadget (I had plenty of time with it during the setup phase) I thought it ran smoothly. Navigation, however, could have been better in certain places. Overall User Interface experience was a 9 out of 10. One point deducted for not considering the fact that some users are not at all tech-savvy. Cool factor deserves a 10 out of 10. But then again, which Apple product has ever gotten less than stellar ratings for style? None. (Except the early Apple PCs?)

We (some friends and I) recently got an Xbox 360 for Julianna for her birthday!
I tabled the idea after hearing that Lee Min had an Xbox 360 that she did not want. She wanted to sell it off for cheap, and of course, resourceful ol’ me chanced upon it. At first, I wanted to buy it for myself. I was being selfish, with Gears of War and everything. Then I heard about how Julie had never had a console in her entire life. An entire life… 20 over years. No console. Now… i know her well enough to know that she has the STUFF in her spirit to be the one to guide Master Chief to victory, or to stop an Alien Invasion, or save the world or to SIMPLY manipulate Sims. How could I let such skills go to waste? So i prepositioned a good deal, and finally delivered it to her, just in time for her birthday. I think it was a good deal!

IF I did it right, then you, my dear reader, are reading the new version of my blog. YES! I am using the beta for Friendster blogs 2.0. I guess Friendster realized, albeiet after a long while, that it’s blog service required a redesign of monumental proportions to keep up with current web technology and the advent of Web 2.0. Web publishing is now smoother, easier and more intuitive thanks to Web 2.0 technologies like new Javas, backend support and Flash all scripted with advanced languages. I am happy to have migrated to a newer, better way to kep my dear audiences up to date :D

A new Web browser has hit the market for PCs everywhere. Yes, Google has finally released Chrome, a minimalist web browser with mighty ambitions. Google seems to want to capture an audience that was once only fought over by Microsoft and Mozilla. I have been using Chrome and I realized that it is, in concept, the most intuitive web browser I have used.

There seems to be a conscious effort to put everything through the Google search engine. That means that you could Google your history if you needed to. If you type something into your address bar, it will display relevant search hits in your history AS WELL AS the top few hits on the Google search engine. That means you could save plenty of time accessing websites!

Also, there is an emphasis on “one-click-to-anywhere”. From a start page that shows your most browsed pages, you could jump to them anytime you open a tab. This single-click concept also extends itself to a whole host of other things like bookmarking, history access and search engines.

Stability was never an issue during my week long review of this browser. In fact, i have been using it extensively and I have not discovered any instabilities or encountered a crash yet. However, Chrome’s stability concept brings things a step further but making each tab run independently off the main browser. That means that each tab is allocated its own system resources. While that makes it a bulkier and system resource hungry browser, the tradeoff is superior stability. If one tab crashes, you can simply close that tab and continue browsing with another tab. The browser never has to be restarted!

While it still has it’s incompatibilities and performance issues with certain plugins, Google Chrome is a fundamentally stable, fast, secure and intelligent browser. Google has released this version as a Beta. I can only guess at what the proper full version will be like when it is released. Microsoft and Mozilla had better look over their collective shoulders, otherwise, Google Chrome could end up as the surprise winner in the traditionally duopolistic browser wars.

Well, I have come to the end of another post. It’s been a hairy period for me, fighing off infections and issues both private and public. It has been extremely tiring for me. I can only keep on fighting, and believing in the goodness that will eventually come.

“Technology is not key to our progress. Our spirit is.”- An Axiom of Humanity, forgotten.

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Connect 3… or 4.. or 5?


Written on August 20, 2008 – 7:30 am | by eitherorneithernor

Hi again! Today’s post is one borne of total, unabated boredom. While sitting alone at home resting 2 nights ago with no one to talk to because Julie is in Buffalo with Rae, Toastmasters were off-duty, there is no class and Yve was dead tired from work, I trawled the Reflexive website for some games to play. It’s a thing I picked up from Julie, because she passed me a little file that would allow me to take a further look into the game past the 60 minute limit that the Reflexive game code allows trial users. (I buy the games if they are really good! I’m not that cheapo :D)

And guess what I chanced upon? Guess guess guess guess!!!!

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YES ladies and gentlemen, it’s Puzzle Quest.

What Puzzle Quest? Well… it’s Connect 3, combined with RPG questing. I thought it was very hokey at the beginning, until I started playing it. Then it took me over. For hours on end.

Why is it so good? Well, let’s start with the concept of puzzle quest. Look here:

Puzzle_quest_pic1

See? The combat system is elegant, tactical and stylish! On the left is your characted with a list of abilities and spells. On the right, your enemy and his stats, abilities, etc and RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE is the board. It’s simple: You match skulls to deal damage, different colours for different mana types, purple stars for EXP and gold for… erm.. GOLD. There IS a story to it but I won’t spoil it for you.

NOW, let’s move on to audio. Music carries a sense of grandeur and epic scale with it’s sweeping ochestral arrangement. It is a fitting score for a fantasy world of wizards, queens and swords. However, batte music requires a bit of tweaking because the combat, while intense, does not have a fixed musical score to accompany it. The score is random and therefore cannot project the fury of the battle properly. That minor blemish aside, all is well. You probably wouldn’t even notice it.

In the end, Puzzle Quest is extremely easy to pick up, but takes hours upon hours of gameplay to master. This is the classic videogame RPG that will keep you glued to the screen for one more battle, one last encounter and then make you do play it somemore… regardless of how many hours of sleep you lost last night playing it. In short, Puzzle Quest is refreshing, exciting and totally engrossing!

Rating: 9/10

Get it at: Reflexive Puzzle Quest Page

Need to unlock it? PAY UP or contact me… either way… PLAY THE GAME!

"Your hero is near death"- something every Puzzle Quester hears at least once…